The Rain Soothes The Tempest That Is My Soul

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 03:16:45 GMT

i'm drinking (hot) peach tea right now. sitting at the computer like this, i feel like i'm on a tv show. my stomach has been hurting very bad all weekend, starting thursday night actually. i left school 1st period friday because i was in so much pain. i have a doctors appointment tuesday, but it probably won't do any good. i've just loft faith in doctors. after all the procedures i've had done one would think they could find what's wrong with me. wrong; not even close. and now i'm stressed out of my mind because i can't even work on my research paper because the one book i need to basically write the whole thing refuses to come in the mail. i'm seriously about to start the whole thing over. p.s. rough draft due wednesday. it's times like these i hate my life. at least my class rank is good. now i just have to keep it up there.

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 04:56:52 GMT

WOW, arcade fire. this is different. i enjoy it still. i watched The Royal Tenenbaums today because the cable was out. them we pretended to watch Harry Potter when, in fact, neither one of us wanted to watch it and we both were falling asleep. then the tv came back on and we watched cribs. then a different "we" went to get coffee and baked cookies and pizza. and here i am. exciting. i'm going to scope out my driver's testing site tomorrow. i hope i pass.

Does This Work?

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 22:38:39 GMT

I hope it does. Luckily, they're still pretty cute.

Pictures from This Weekend

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 04:05:08 GMT

anyone like cute kids? i can't work cuts.

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 04:26:59 GMT

today feels like thanksgiving still. i can't stand it when people put the emphasis on the "thanks" instead of on the "giv". it's just wrong.

tomorrow my mom and i are sorting through stuff for our garage sale (details to follow) and i'd appreciate it if you(being anyone who reads this)would come to the sale in a few weeks and buy some of our junk off of us. it's going to be some good stuff because we haven't had a garage sale in about 10 years i think. there's also going to be a lot of cds from my 4th-7th grade "what the heck was i listening to" phase, as i so affectionately refer to it. Len anyone?

for all the embarrassment that the aforementioned brings upon, i had to say it. it's the epitome of senseless adolescent foolishness (redundant much?)

my dad gave me a book titled: Games for the Super-intelligent

i like this post. i hope lots of people read it. pass it along.if you feel necessary.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 04:15:29 GMT

Well, this seems strange. i'm not sure how long it's been. it's been long though. nothing is different. school, people, pumpkins:

and that's it.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 23:41:29 GMT

Happy Mole Day

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 01:36:09 GMT

Pick a band and answer the
questions with song titles.

The Decemberists

1. Are you male or female?:
The Infanta

2. Describe yourself:
Youth and Beauty Brigade

3. How do some people feel about you?
A Cautionary Song

4. Describe your main interest(s):
I Was Meant for the Stage

5. How do you feel about yourself?:
The Chimbly Sweep

6. Where would you rather be?:
Los Angeles, I'm yours

7. Describe how you live:
Cocoon

8. Describe how you love:
We Both Go Down Together

9. Share a few words of wisdom:
Everything I Try to Do, Nothing Seems To Turn Out Right

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 03:43:32 GMT

Dad on physics: "what is this 'Newtons'? force isn't measured in Newtons, figs are measured in Newtons!"

Genius

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 05:02:51 GMT

i just wrote a really long entry and lost it and now i'm (see mood).

in other news: alex, i saw you in the hall the other day but i was turning as i saw you. i stuck my head out from behind the corner because i thought you saw me too and i made what must have been a ridiculous face because i thought you saw me to. and i considered turning around to say hi in the first place because of the wave/don't wave thing. so i "waved" and you didn't see me, and i made a fool of myself, and i'm scarred for life. so you know, i don't blame anything on you. i just thought it was ironic that i see you so much and you never see me and i tried but failed horribly when i tried to greet you.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 03:19:49 GMT

a friend of mine asked me today who my best friend was. the fact is that it was strange for this person to ask me (because we don't talk much, but i think he thinks were closer than i think we are, does that make sense? too much thinking). but in general, i hate that question. well, maybe not the question so much as the entire idea of "best friends". i'll refrain now from the use of hate, not because i think it's too strong of a word(even when referring to feelings towards other people) but because it's not accurate in this situation. unless you've known someone for a really long time and are ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE that that person is your best friend, trying to figure out if the person is or isn't is so awkward. it's not the kind of thing you can ask someone straight out. so what was my answer to the question? i said no initially, then clarified that the person who i would consider my best friend may bot consider me hers. now, this isn't necessarily to say that i'm a disillusioned fool for thinking someone is my best friend when i hardly know her. we're definitely friends, good friend...but best? i'm not sure.

what defines a best friend anyway? someone who you share secrets with? someone who you could be around all day and not get tired? the person you find most interesting? maybe, but if so, best friends are just a cliche. i don't want this to seem like i'm not interested in having a best friend, if i really knew that i had a best friend and that the feeling was mutual, well, i don't know what, but it would be okay by me. i haven't even mentioned my other "best friend". ironic that he started out as a friend and we became best friends almost as a joke, but we're surprisingly close. that makes me happy.

enough of that subject, for now. i'd be perfectly willing to discuss this with anyone interested. i thought this week would never end. but now it's about to.

lastly, the funniest thing that happened today (in my opinion): during the fire drill...

(mr. hample had directed us to go up to the stands even though everyone else was just standing near the courts. so we're all sitting there when all of a sudden)...

random kid in class: why are we the only ones up here?
liz: it doesn't matter. if this were a real fire drill we'd still be alive
me: if we weren't engulfed by the flames first( we were some of the last ones out of the building)
liz: yeah, but then it wouldn't be out fault if we died.
me:when you're dead, it doesn't matter whose fault it is.

it seemed proverbial to me, i liked it.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 03:47:57 GMT

Well today was fun. national honor society makes me feel...not that smart. i appreciate that we're the "creme de la creme" of north springs, but looking around the theater during induction did not prove this. an IQ test should be part of the application, because no matter how hard some of those kids study, they couldn't find their way out of a paper bag.

e.g. one girl i know was inducted today when, only HOURS earlier, she said that mars was on of jupiter's moons.

does that prove my point?

i really hate when things that are supposed to my huge honors seem to go to people who least deserve them. i don't want to come off as a conceited idiot, but i have a great GPA and lots of common sense. there are plenty of people i know who are extremely deserving of a place in nhs, people who don't think that SHAMPOO is the SURFACE in your house that causes the least friction(no i'm not kidding).

Cross my fingers that i get out of rehearsal early for the homecoming game and/or dance. i've been told it's lame, but i'm not going to say that i know it is because i've never been before. maybe i'll love it. maybe homecoming is what i've been waiting for all my life.

i wish i had a blast from the past outfit. i'll shake the hands of all you boys who've been dressing up all week.

i love this song.

too much space in this entry? take your complaints to the complaint department.

"the time has come", the walrus said, "to talk of many things"

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 03:56:15 GMT

6 minutes until sarah may's birthday...today was good. chock-full-of-pirates. tomorrow...mhmhmhmmm...i don't know what i'm wearing. i'll post again soon, when i'm not racing to get into bed by midnight. physics test tomorrow. aye.

EQ: how do i write livejournal posts good?

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 02:39:40 GMT

so many things happened today that put me in a bad mood, but for some reason, i'm in a pretty good mood now. i really want some time to just relax. i want a free weekend!

does anyone want to do anything tomorrow night? because being with the same people every night and weekend is really getting old.

i miss being lazy and watching lots of tv and movies and listening to music. i haven't even gotten a chance to listen to illinoise yet.

the end.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 03:36:35 GMT

i'm not updating this because i have something to say, but because i feel like typing and making my brain churn. i really believe that it's the b & s that's making me think. i wouldn't have started playing it except that i wanted the songs on every album in my media player to have the same play count so i'm playing every song that has been played less than others. and, alas, i stumbled upon my beloved Belle and Sebastian.*swoon* i'm in national honors society, thats good, excellent actually. i'm very pleased with myself.

here we go: i hate when i'm talking to my mom about something i've started to enjoy (in today's case, it was dancing) and she says that she knew i should have kept up with it but that i always quit. does she really think that i knew what i was doing when i was 3! this is the reason that i don't play an instrument, my mom says she never wanted to pressure me into doing anything(same with sports, which i still don't enjoy) but where am i now? i don't really know how to dance, i don't play an instrument, i can't do anything except be smart and pretend that i know how to act. maybe if i was forced to do something, i 'd be more well rounded. too late now.

"it'd be heavenly"

i don't want this to sound like i'm desperate to write something

long time, no post

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 02:07:20 GMT

i had to rehearsal tonight, probably my main propeller in writing anything here. new friends: i'm getting pretty good at making them. ::cough::paul::cough::

aaand, now i cant think of anything else to say. my legs are sore because of a dance we're learning(involving many squats)and i'm getting the pre-cal, so i think i'm headed in a pretty safe direction.

skirt wearing went pretty well today, i think i'm going to go for it again tomorrow. speaking of tomorrow...Gilmore Girls season premiere!! ahh, yay! too many interjections! i have nothing else to say.

Mr. P. eat lunch in your 3rd period classroom if you know what's good for you. or do whatever you want.

do you think that the kids who wear their pajamas to school regularly have nothing but actual clothes to wear to sleep?

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 03:56:47 GMT

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Owen_Pallett

http://finalfantasyeternal.com/

i hope people still read this. so they can see this!

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 21:46:41 GMT

so, how about last night huh? i guess it sort of spilled over into this morning. i 've got some gre-he-he-at stories to tell if anyone's interested. basically they involve me being DRUNK off my ass and shouting, amongst other things. it was pretty good though, just what i wanted, or needed perhaps. someone please figure out how i can put a video file into my myspace!

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 03:26:22 GMT

my poor best friend. i feel so useless.

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 01:16:19 GMT

i just took a shower.

you never realize how loud the shower is because you're in it and the water sort of blocks your ears, but as i rinsed the shampoo out of my hair, i noticed how incredible loud it really was. too loud, i hate loud noise. i'll continue to shower.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 04:40:06 GMT

today was uneventful. slept in, but only until 10 which is good because i was rested but i didn't waste my whole day. then i went to a pathetic yard sale down the street from me. afterwards we (maddy, mom, and i) went to value village where i got a dinosaurs lunch box( my favorite! i miss that show so much) and to bargain city where we almost got katie this cup thing, but decided against it. then we did something completely unoriginal and went to the mall. where we proceeded to purchase gifts for katie. we also admired antique costumes and props at a Turner Classic Movies display in one of the lobbies. then Katie's party which i will talk about in detail later in this post.

i wish i didnt have homework to do tomorrow, and i'm not ready to go back to school yet. i just want to sleep and relax and read and watch Pippi Longstocking. instead, i'll be saying goodbye to my last free weekend(let alone day) for about 6 weeks, except for i think the 4th and 5th of september, so lets(meaning me, and whoever reads this) plan stuff for then. only a few days! i can only hope that in the next 6 weeks i'll be in motion long enough to burn some calories and come out of this show as one hot chick! or something close.

so...the party! pretty fun. some people i knew, some people i didn't know, some ice cream cake, and some vegetables. more good than not. i had a good time, enjoyed my own music, and katie's as well. talked with katie lange, thank was good. goofed with maddy. i didn't get to talk much to cam though which was disappointing because we just started being friends again, i think.

wow, i wrote a lot.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 03:46:58 GMT

my entry from the 7th says that i don't like my small ears but what i mean by that is that earbuds don't fit in them. the physical size of them is fine, i actually like them except that i can't fit earphones in them.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 03:44:15 GMT

well i suppose that this update is for Alex and my internet stalker. school's good. Urinetown is ridiculous and Alex is going to think that i have a 4th grade writing level because of this journal and i'm sure that's just about true. i'm not a great writer but you'll all have to deal.

back to Urinetown. it's hectic and i've basically signed away the next 6 weeks of my life (including weekends). that should be..umm...fun? it is fun but i wish we had more time, i wish i had more lines and i wish i could sing better. i don't really understand why i like theatre that much. i hate singing in front of people. i don't want to do this for a living. i'm not really much for drama kids either. i truly think band is the place for me.

i feel bad because Aunt Bev called me andi haven't had a chance to call her back. this is why Steph get's so mad at me. she feels like i never make time for her and that i don't make an effort to stay in touch with her. I HATE WHEN SHE DOES THAT! she makes me feel so guilty. speaking of which, i have to call her too.

so plans for this weekend include:
1. making phone calls cross-country
2. going to Katie's party
3. application for nhs

no rehearsal this weekend, thank god. i think that's enough.

oh, and internet stalker, my favourite candies are wintogreen lifesavers and jelly bellys.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 21:42:22 GMT

hi, i'm back.

Greetings From Lincoln City

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 03:18:46 GMT

why yes, i am in oregon. i am visiting my aunt, making moo-lah, and wrastling with a st. bernard. ahh, the good life. i know that no one really reads this so i'll get straight to it...i know you want a souvenir and i would like to get you one, but what do i get?! keep in mind that besides beach knick-knacks and le usual things, i am currently employed in a "pet boutique" i can get pet gifts, pet owner gifts, etc. i know you have pets!! well that's all. i miss you guys.

this update was mainly directed to M and K. you know who you are.

i miss you ladies(are they?) but i also miss W and P and B. M and K should know who i'm talking about.

Call my cell phone. i have it, i answer it. but i am 3 hours behind you guys. hmm i think thats all